wishing i had a....

nice cold cup of iced vanilla chai... yum!! Oh well.. i'll just pretend i have one sitting here in front of me and try to "taste" it in my mouth.. Its kind of a relaxing morning. We just had toast and Carson had 2 bananas too this am.. He's a fruit lover, which is much better than loving junk food.. Yesterday went good.. We went to HyVee and got some grocery, had lunch, went to a bday party, and then came home and got stuff done. Felt good to do some DIY projects around the house. We have our end table sanded now and ready to be painted black. I started working on our slip cover for over the toy box that the tv is currently sitting on.. As you may have noticed on some of the pictures I've posted.. Hopefully i get that sewn today.. And i sure hope it fits too! But yea, lately I have found that my new hobby is DIY(do it yourself) projects.. Mainly house related projects.. I love doing decoration stuff for around the house, painting ugly brown wood to a different color(mainly black)... My mom told me that i am going to get sick of black... Nah... thats the style right now.. If it gets old, i can always paint it a different color.. I just cant wait to get everything tied in together after getting walls painted.. Which is something i plan to do THIS week.. possibly paint the wall that runs thru the living room and kitchen today after our hedrick/ottumwa trip.. Going to get some baby items from Target.. Hopefully they have everything i want/need.. I dont have anything for the cloth diapers so i want to get some wicker basket for those and place it on the end table shelf.. And need something for the baby clothes, its sitting in the laundry basket right now all clean and folded.. :) oh so far.. i've got 15-16 med diapers sewn.. I'm seriously thinking about only doing like 24 instead of 30!! Just getting tiring and never ending when it comes to working on diapers... I want it out of my mind!! I have what I call... "Pregnancy ADHD".. meaning, i pretty much don't know how to relax my mind till everything is done... actually... that could be called nesting.. Has anyone dealt with this before? Anyway, better go!

almost successful........

Carson did a great job again yesterday with potty training.. he pooped on the bathroom floor but i do think he was trying to tell me to come to him while i was painting in the kitchen.. he always says.. mommy, come here.. so it could mean come here and sit with me on the couch or come here and play with me.. So i didn't know what exactly he wanted... I saw poop on the floor so off to clean that up.. but he got the picture tho... you poop in the BATHROOM.. except on the potty, not floor.. I kept my calm.. i really wasn't mad b/c part of it was my fault! Sometimes it frustrating to clean up a mess like that and irritates me, but thats part of being a mom.. Still had him running around with out undies and diaper on.. I want him to get the hang of using the potty and TELLING me and then I'll introduce underwear and hope he sticks with the using the potty. Today we have a bday party to go to and not sure how to do this with Carson.. I'll just have to take him to the bathroom more often so i can catch him before peeing his undies AND bring extra clothes of course! Pray for me!
I am looking forward to Thursday night with the ladies!! Cant wait to see what Heather and Traci have planned out for me that night. I'm feeling a little bit guilty for not inviting some people but thats b/c they don't know anything yet(some of my close friends).. well they will AFTER baby is here.. :) Or some knows but uncomfortable with the issue but wonder if it would help them understand better if i invite them to Thursday nights event? Are you reading this mom??
I had a dream earlier this week that i had twins.. boy came first and then a girl, which was "supposed" to be the placenta but it was a head instead.. :) And everything went good! That really gave me a peace of mind about this baby's arrival.. Oh by the way.. I've gained 35 pounds already! ugh, depressing! It surely doesn't feel like I've gained that much but must all be in the legs/arms.. Always had big legs/arms anyway but still.. not the greatest feeling! I have a goal weight after baby comes.. I hope to accomplish that goal!! I told Alex a few months back, that if i hit my goal weight, which is a lot to lose but if i hit that goal, i want to get us a Harley... :) I love the sound of those things! Although i can see myself freaking out if I do hit my goal weight and DO buy a Harley, i might start freaking out and say... No, lets not get one! I'd be afraid to get hit by a car with it or something.. I wouldn't care if i didn't have kids.. Amazing how cautious we become of ourselves after becoming a mom.. Before kids, I wasn't afraid to try anything new.. Its terrifying now! However, I still want to do the demolition derby someday!! Ok i better go!! I really want to go garage saleing today but no extra money to spend... : (

Update

Theres a few things i wanted to share...
One, Carson did a great job of peeing in the toilet whenever i put him on the toilet. Just about every time I'd put him on there, he would pee.. He still doesn't tell me when he has to go potty or poop. He hasn't gone poop yesterday so I'm hoping he doesn't do it on the floor today, hoping to get him to do that in the potty.. So thats still the challenge for right now, him not telling me he has to pee/poop and thinking underwear is a diaper.. Yesterday, he went all day without an undie or diaper.. :) I think it will be a success soon!! Gotta stick with it this time around! I'm good at giving up....
Two, this house keeps getting smaller and smaller....... i really wish we bought a bigger house. What were we thinking when we bought this house in the first place?! Apparently, I never thought of the future.. i was only thinking, me, alex and Carson at the time.... *what about the rest of my future kids?* I am praying we will find a house we like in our price limit after baby is born. Why are we doing all this work to the house, you wonder?? Well... its good to have for NOW and will increase the value of the house.. :) By the way, I got to take a shower in the new tub/shower combo last night!! I loved it! I will love it even more when everything is done in the bathroom.. :) I went to Wal Mart last night looking for a shower curtain but didn't find one i liked, so for right now we are just using a shower liner. Theres one at Target that i liked. We are going for a black and deep red color for the bathroom accessories with tan color on the wall.... I think that will go together good. There is this house for sale by owner that I mentioned about on about 10 post ago, I forgot to talk more about that after we called them.. well.. it sounds like the perfect house but NOT the perfect price at all... I keep thinking... SOMEDAY we will have the right house!! We have potential to add on to this house, but I think I'd rather look around first and if no luck at all.... then maybe we'll have to consider that.. Alex has already spent hours on the addition to this house and I cant even remember what it looks like.. But right now, I'm not finding anything on the market that I like.. Well actually yes, theres a few houses I'd love to have but do i love the price of the house?? NO..
Three, I will be at "full term" starting TOMORROW!!! I'm excited about it!! I'm still on a mission to get everything done! I *might* paint today.. we'll see...... I always wonder what day is this baby going to be here?? Our friend, Ashley Dubra is in town from MN, he was hoping I'd have the baby while he's in town.. I knew this wouldn't happen.. Sorry Doobie! MAYBE next weekend when you are back.... It would be cool to have a 4th of July baby, but thats all in God's hand.. I will just be patient about it.. I have been this whole time along.. (probably b/c I'm not done with the diapers and painting yet).. Its been a great pregnancy! I like how I'm not complaining.. *yet*, I can still sleep comfortable, my hips have not been hurting, I like how belly is not as big as how Carson's was at this stage, I feel healthier this time around.. Thanks to avoiding fast food restaurants.. :) I was a junkie when pregnant with Carson.. Thankfully, he was a healthy baby! Oh yea, and being more active with this pregnancy, i HAVE to be when you have a toddler...
Ok I better move on to other stuff.. And of course be wondering all day after reading sister in laws blog about what she could be doing for me?? What creative project could you be doing, H??

We have central A/C now!!! So happy about that! I wasn't digging the window A/C's.. It worked but... prefer central a/c.. The tub is still under construction.. last night, Alex said... ONE more day of going to Dads house to shower... We'll see about that! We had company last night so we had fun entertaining each other instead of working on the tub like what should have been done.. We dont have friends over very often so might as well take advantage of that!
Different subject... It sure has been a challenge potty training Carson. I decided NOT to buy anymore disposable diapers and use cloth diapers... well.. the cloth diapers is tight on him and leaving marks on him.. :( So i usually let him run around bottomless... yesterday he had underwear on but we only have 3 for right now(need to buy some) and he went thru all of them.. one he pooped in.. that was a gross mess to clean up! and the other 2 he peed in... the last one was when he was sitting on my lap drawing on his doodle board and decided to pee on me... grrrr!!! He CAN control his pee.. I sit there and watch him pee on the toilet.. he is able to stop his pee to fix his aim.. lol.. AND when i put him on the toilet, he'll pee.. He just thinks that his undies IS a diaper and doesn't tell me he has to pee... thats the hardest part of all... I decided to reward him with ice cream.. I never thought I'd be doing rewards with food but its been working so I'm going to stick with the ice cream reward.. Pray for me as i continue to keep my patience with this whole potty training session with Carson. Pray for success too!
Ok, i should be folding laundry and sew more diapers.. I think for baby Doak 3 i will SAVE up lots of money and buy cloth diapers.. OR start at month ONE of the pregnancy... it really is time consuming!! Not hard but takes a lot of time!

is it possible.....

to get everything done before the 3rd of July?? I woke up with a list in my head of what needed to be done.. I decided to try out the cloth diapers since Carson was down to 2 disposable diapers, but i couldn't even get the diapers to snap.. That was very frustrating! I texted my sister in law about it and asking her for tips.. i thought maybe they had sent me the wrong size or made some mistake.. but it turned that that some of the diapers didn't have enough pressure towards the snaps so that caused it to not snap.. Thankfully... Alex took care of that for me.. So for right now, Carson has 13 large diapers he can use.. :) He really should be in underwear's in my opinion!! Right now, he's kinda spacey minded when it comes to letting me know he has to pee or poop. I have 11 mediums ready for snaps.. So that means... 19 more mediums to sew and 17 larges... AND painting the rest of the kitchen, which was what i was trying to get to today but didn't happen, living room, hallway, bathroom and C room needs painted... Alex keeps trying to tell me that it DOESN'T need to be painted before baby comes... said i need to RELAX till baby comes... NOOO... its the opposite! I need to get this done NOW so i can relax when baby comes and not be overwhelmed.. We still don't have a tub/shower fully installed yet.. the guys have been making progress... we are still taking showers at my dads house, which isn't the worst thing of all but it would be nice to shower/bathe here at home once thats done.. Actually.. its gonna be nice when everything is done! I'm really looking forward to the outcome of new colors in the house and our decorations up on the wall for once. Alrighty.. i've got books that needs to go in a box so i can unscrew the rain gutter bookshelf off the wall and fill the holes in with drywall mud.. a step to getting this room prepped for painting..

DEADLINE

My deadline to get everything done is...... july 3rd... Thats 11 days from today!! I still have a lot of diapers to do and paint all the rooms that haven't been painted yet.. Think i can do it?? And of course, hang all the pictures up after painting.. I'll feel relaxed then!! Alex and Ben got the shower out yesterday and made a wall frame for end of tub.. so hopefully today we will have a bathtub.. it is A LOT of work/time to do something like that. We went to my dads house to shower last night, it wasn't that bad, but not something i want to do everyday.... Wish i had the powers to close my eyes and say... ok, shower... get out of my bathroom and poof, theres a tub.. and the same with the paint and diapers.. Wouldn't that be nice??
I think i better get some maternity pictures taken SOON.. This baby may be early so never know!! better to be safe than sorry!! I'm excited for the day to come! I don't look forward to labor pains but it'll all be worth it when baby comes..
Alrighty, I shall log off and move on with the diapers and hopefully do some painting today. Yesterday wasn't a good day to paint as I had planned to do.. Poor Carson got sick yesterday morning.. He was fine after he napped and threw up the 2nd time, his color came back after that.. Anyway, today shall be better! Except Alex just walks in and says he had a headache and laying in bed right now.. That better get better! I cant go days without a tub/shower here.. :P

Thank You, Lord, that You suffered and died for us so that we might be healed. I lay claim to that heritage of healing which You have promised in Your Word and provided for those who believe. I look to You for a life of health, healing, and wholeness for my child.

i'm here........

The last 2 days have been BUSY!! Carson spent Tuesday afternoon at Grandma Tami's and had a fun playing with the sprinklers outside.. He loves water! It will be like Christmas day for him when the tub gets installed.. speaking of the tub, we went to Altoona and got the shower/tub combo.. did we like paying for it? no, not one bit!(have to remind us, we will get our $ back when we sell the house, hopefully!) Hopefully this weekend the guys can get it installed. I will be thrilled to have a tub! But back to Tuesday, i painted the kitchen while Carson was gone. That took the whole afternoon, could have been quicker if i had the right rollers to use.. but we love the way the kitchen looks now and thats not even with the 2nd color yet! One wall is still white and the cupboard frame(above cupboard, where my "with God, all things are possible" stencil is) is still white, that will be painted once we get the paint. Can't wait to see how it will all turn out once EVERYTHING is painted and all the pictures are hung up..
Yesterday afternoon, Carson was at aunt Heather's house and played there with the cousins and they have a Thomas the train set there, he barely said bye to daddy when he dropped him off there, he apparently got too excited seeing the train set there and the kids of course! I got a lot done here at home too as well when Carson was there! It feels GREAT! All i'm down to is painting and diapers!! Of course stuff will get thrown at me along the way that'll need to be done but theres ALWAYS something anyway but i'm glad to have the majority of the stuff crossed off my list to do!! Big THANKS to mil Tami and sil Heather!!
Today is work on diapers and empty out bathroom closet since there will be some demo done to the closet.. I will have to get used to the change in there but I'm going to be happy having a bathtub.. Going to be so much easier for the kids.. Again, I'm going to have to get used to saying the word... kids.. hard to believe I'm going to have KIDS here soon... If i have a boy, then i'll probably be saying BOYS way more than kids.. Kids is just a weird word to say.. I cant wait til baby comes!! I'm extremely anxious to know what I'm having... for the longest time i thought it was going to be a boy but now I'm questioning it!! I'm going to be happy with either boy or girl.. a HEALTHY one is all i want!
ok this is getting long!! Better get off the computer!!

Bless the Lord, O my soul, And forget not all His benefits: Who forgives all your iniquities, Who heals all your diseases. ~Psalm 103:2-3