One year anniversary

Its coming up!! :) I think we had a great one year together.. I was pregnant for the most part and sick pretty much right after we got married, i was sick for 10+ days and Alex took care of everything, i was impressed by the way he handled everything, unfortunately he had to work so I had to take care of Carson(while he felt soo heavy as i had NO energy) while he was at work, I'll never forget that! I cant recall of a time when Alex and I got into it.. We do bicker here(don't they all?) and there but its nothing big at all.. I'm proud of us for getting along better than we ever have before!! I hope to keep that up! Last night, Alex brought up a few things we could do for our anniversary and they do involve leaving Carson home with a sitter...... I don't think i can do this again.. I wanted to go to Branson, MO with the kids but Alex is not up for that trip right now, i understand why.. So i may have to tell Alex that we can have a weekend getaway without kids when they are older.. well that is if i get to take a big break from having kids right now.. I like to say, i'm done for right now.. give me about 4 years for another one! :) of course if someone gets pregnant or has a newborn in their arms, i'm gonna be jealous and have the baby fevers but i'll be able to handle it! I think i did a great job between Carson and Kylie!! theres a little less than 3 years between them! Perfect age gap for me!
So anyway while i've went off subject a few times here and there, my point for this post was... Anyone have ideas of what Alex and I can do for our anniversary??

Hair-Do

I'm wanting to get a haircut but want to keep my length, its just right above the shoulder right now. Wanting a bob cut with bangs... On the pic above, you cant really see much bangs, but i dont want to go too dramatic with the bangs, soooo i think i will just do it a tad bit shorter than hers.. AND I'm far from being a blond(i have my blond moments but color wise, 100% brunette!!) I want your honest opinion! Can you picture BANGS on me... I'm sure most of you have seen me with a bobcut style but with BANGS, i've never done that before!....... Throw in your ideas/thoughts/suggestions! No, i wont change my hair color! :) Thanks!

Carson's birthday

Here comes the cake!!
Hurry up with the birthday song!! I cant wait to blow these candles out!

I'm STILL waiting!! There goes one candleThere goes 2....There goes 3!!!! And then we had cake and it was yummy! Ice cream cake roll in case if you're wondering what that cake is.. I use breyers vanilla ice cream..

it only took ONE sentence........

Been M.I.A for a few days... Sorry to disappoint some of my readers! :) We celebrated Carson's birthday on Tuesday evening.. Just alex, me, kylie and my sister. I made an ice cream cake roll that day and it was one of those days when i was stressed out and my fuse was running short.. unfortunately that had to be on Carson's birthday.. :( But it had a great ending! It was fun watching Carson get all excited about getting a cake with candles on it.. he could hardly wait thru the birthday song to blow the candles out(on the pictures, his hands says it all!!). We have pictures of him blowing his candles out.. he did it one by one.. So cute! I'll post pictures soon!
Last night, I went to bible study and glad I went, I almost didn't go b/c I had cleaned the garage out all afternoon and needed to shower and bathe Kylie before bible study but i made good timing so made it to bible study a little late.. but I came up with an idea of what we should do for bible study, b/c we have a book we are reading but umm... we hardly get to it b/c we talk too much! :) Well actually.. my mother in law had came up with an idea and then i threw in my idea that i have thought about for a while but just never brought it up! that is asking questions(bible study related) when you are struggling about things.. My struggle was.. I wanted to know where God stands at when it comes to personal issues.. It took one sentence that felt like all my questions were answered... God doesn't do bad things to us, its the CHOICES we make.. (it wasn't exactly worded like that, that's in my words..)
I got pregnant with Carson before marriage and I wasn't sure if this was God's plan even though we weren't married and I felt like I disappointed Him and others as well... I do believe that Carson was planned by Him(God does not make mistakes and NO ONE is an accident, maybe for the parents but not in God's eyes!) but still it was a choice that Alex and I made.. We knew we shouldn't be having premarital sex but that's nothing we can change now.. plus, where would we be without Carson!?! He is our BLESSING! If we didn't have Carson, I don't think we would have Kylie either.. (since this is a public blog, i wont get into details about that.. if i feel its right, I'll post a blog about that, but right now, i don't have that much time to blog about it) Carson and Kylie are our blessings! I've never had so much faith in God til AFTER I had Carson. Carson is the reason why I became a strong believer in God, sure I always believed in God but it wasn't enough! I try to live in God's way... (unassisted childbirth(with God as my "doctor".. *drawing a blank on a better word*), avoid unclean meat, homeopathy lifestyle, etc) I thank Him for my kids and my future kids if we continue to be blessed with more kids! And thank you Alex for helping me create Carson and Kylie.. ;)

weekend adventure..

We went to the zoo and met Diego.. the highlight of our zoo trip!! Carson went to Grandma Lisa's after the zoo while Alex and I(and Kylie!) went out to eat, and birthday shopping for Carson, while Carson was with grandma, they went to Menards and grandma got him a sandbox!! So Sunday we got that set up and Carson loved it.. which i will have pics of that later as those pictures are on a different camera card that i havent uploaded on here yet.. been a busy day! Carson is going to be 3 tomorrow!! (Tuesday)...... That feels weird as I still call him my baby boy.. he'll always be my baby boy, carson claims he's not a baby boy anymore but to me he is... :)

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random-ness

*i just realized that kylie weighed 12lb 9oz on 9-12.. she was 7lbs 12oz on 7-12..
*i really should be sewing some diapers but i'm such a slacker or lack of motivation.. what is up with that??
*found some books i want to check out at the library.. they are... this and that. Will i agree with those books? i don't know.. i will find out!
*found out today that my uncle has a disease(myositis) that his immune system is attacking his muscles which is causing him very weak.. I'm tempted to do research, to find the cause of that and see what alternative meds i can find for him.. I doubt he'll take me seriously but i can at least print off papers for him and let him read it. The thought counts right??
*i think you should read Traci's blog.. :) Nice to have a birth junkie in the family to feed me some info..
*i made mash potatoes tonight in the crock-pot for the first time. I want to use my crock-pot more often. makes life easier!
*i cant wait to start working on/making Alex's gift for our 1 yr anniversary.
*i LOVE having a son AND a daughter, they're my world! my family is complete..... for now!
*i want to BUILD a house.. guess we should start making more $$ first and pay off our debts.. but doesn't hurt to dream!
*on the same night, alex had a dream that he won the lottery, i had a dream he cheated on me with a girl i know... perfect combo huh?? i wanted to push him off the bed when i woke up in the middle of the night after that dream....but i didnt...... i realized, just in time, it was a dream.. :)
*ok, i'm done! can you tell i was bored? avoiding the diaper sewing for no apparent reason..

Carson and Kylie

Carson is my blond haired kid... Kylie, believe it or not, is my red headed baby.. Thought I'd shard this as they somewhat look alike. Kylie does remind me of Carson at times. :) By the way, Kylie is 2 months old now! The pic below is one of her 2 month old picture. On the 12th, she weighed in at 12lbs 9oz!! 2 weeks before that, she was 11lbs 9oz.. She is doing awesome!!

He makes me laugh..........

Doing the Steve Urkel style... I have no idea where he got this from, but he knows it makes me laugh so maybe that's why he does that?

After he's done in the bathroom, sometimes he'll come out hopping with his undies and pants down at his ankles.. :)

This is what happens when you have a big brother, putting random stuff on baby's head while baby is sleeping...

He usually knows how to make my day!! He'll be 3 on the 23rd of Sept. Time flies and its been a great 3 years!! He's our pride and joy!! AND Kylie too!!

Preschool time at home..

We started our first homeschooling lesson on Friday!(I've been trying to get the video to load since Friday, I'll just have to try it again!) Hopefully he will enjoy what i have in mind for fun learning activities.. I also want him to enjoy learning like his dad.. I sure hated school myself so I'm praying my kids will be the opposite.. I'm sure there's a huge difference with public school and homeschooling.. I will find out soon.. I have fun thinking of new ideas of what to do with Carson to keep it fun! I will have to print off a planner/calendar sheet for myself to train myself to be consistent.. might be a good idea to start that NOW as its something I'm struggling with.. i AM getting better at that! I'm also getting better at not worrying about what needs to be done around the house.. there's ALWAYS going to be something that needs to be done in the house(dishes,laundry,tidy-up,etc)..
I also use sign language with him when learning new stuff.. its almost doing like 4 things on one thing.. colors, sign language, naming the object and shapes if it applies.. Does that even make sense?

Monkey Dance and Kylies short video clip

I was hoping to get Kylie smiling some more but the internal memory on camera ran out of space.. I will try my best to catch my children milestone without them realizing I'm videotaping them. Carson knows the camera and doesn't always act the same.. For example, i tried getting the monkey dance and then he did the weird noise and hand movement at the end of monkey dance.. at least we got the beginning of it! I'm going to have to capture more funny stuff on camera so i can watch it when I'm old and kids are out house.. Making a "Blast From The Past" video album for kids and I so my grandkids can watch their silly dad/mom.. That stuff is important to me!! My mom has tons of video of my sister and I and I enjoy watching them when I can.. There are some things that I've watched of myself that Carson does.. :)

wheres six????

Video from today.. 9-11-08


I have a video of Kylie, first video, on camera but its saved on the internal memory of camera. I'll have to wait for Alex to get that on computer for me. I cant figure out how to do that??

Being a mom=lots of scraficing

The title almost explains it all in one short sentence.. Why am i saying this? Well yesterday while loading the dishwasher, i realized that I've sacrificed(with joy) a lot ever since I became a mom. I was invited to a bachelorettes party, its an overnight party at a hotel in DSM, now this would be really fun to go to but i wont be going for a few reasons, one I'm nursing kylie, I refuse to pump bottles for her and 2-i cant even handle staying away from my kids overnight.. done that with carson and wont do it again til I'm emotionally ready for it..
Before I became a mom, i was really looking forward to my 21st birthday b/c I'll be legal to drink and go to bars.. I remember telling ppl, i cant wait til i turn 21... well 21 came and it was just another number... Nothing exciting at all.. Alex, Carson and I actually all had the flu.. :) I still have not been to a bar and have no desire to go to one.. I'd just prefer to stay at home with my children than go to bars or partying. Some moms are able to do this on a every weekend basis or even during the weeks, i'm not sure how they can do it?? I promise to keep this a clean blog, I wont get ugly on this, it is something that bothers me a lot but...... someday i hope they realize how much they've missed out while their kids were growing up..
This morning i read a disturbing blog about a mom that killed herself and left behind a little girl.. My heart goes out to this little girl and the family. Something must have been really bothering her to be able to do that.. I literally get tears in my eyes when i wonder if anything will ever happen to me, being killed in a car accident or something like that(no i would NEVER kill myself if that even crossed your mind) and leaving my kids behind on earth.. Who is going to take care of them? I know Alex is capable of doing that but its MY job to take care of my kids and Alex be our financial supporter.. Its hard.. extremely hard on me.. I know that Heaven is a much better place, I often wonder what Heaven is like.. but I want to wait til my kids are on their own, I want them to be who I raised/want them to be.. That is something completely out of my control. I am trusting the Lord that he knows what he is doing and that my kids will be well taken care of and surrounded by lots of love.. That is IF that happened to me.. I really hope not!
I often ask myself, how do i want to be remembered as a mom.. my answer is.. i want to be remembered as a fun mom, i want them to have great childhood memories, i want to be remembered as a devoted mom... i want them to have a great relationship with God, this is something i will have to teach them and set an example for them too as well.. And I also want to be my children best friend!!
ok, moral of the story.. being a mom is a precious job, make the best of it!

i <3 (heart) Craigslist!!

I finally found a double stroller(after a good 2-3 months of searching around) that meets my qualification! (good shape, no stains, newer, name brand...yes i'm picky) Its an Eddie Bauer stroller that the front of seat is reversible(facing me)! how awesome! We are definitely getting a deal on it!! :D From what I've found online, it sells anywhere from $180 to $250.. WE are buying it for $75.. :) Getting it on Sunday.. Time to shed the pounds off!!! Many post ago, i mentioned that everyone should check craigslist before going out paying full price....... you really should do that.. (with the exception of stuff that you wouldnt want to buy used..) Its not that i'm a cheap person, I just love to get good deals on stuff...
ALSO, another reason why i love craigslist.... well... I sold my dads camper the next day i posted on there.. AND same for my cloth diapers i made(yes, after all that nagging and time it took). I sold it on Craigslist the same day posting it on there. I am making different ones right now, well.. working on creating a new pattern and almost done with the one i started on today and will be testing it out on Kylie and see how i like it..
again... I HEART CRAIGSLIST!!! Thought i'd let you know that!!!
off to finish sewing.....

over a week??

i didn't know it took me this long to get back to blogging.. sorry if i disappoint some of you guys.. i have been extra busy over the past week and a half.. and tired at times on top of that.. I've had computer time but just been doing other stuff on the computer over blogging. Well not sure what exactly to blog about??? Kylie is getting so big already! I'm sad that she is out of the newborn stage.. she actually grew out of that FAST! I weighed her the 29th and she was 11lbs 9oz!!! She is awake more often now and at longer periods of time but still likes to sleep on and off during day time, does good at night time, cant complain about that!
Carson has made me laugh a lot lately.. He has some of his words mixed up.. for example... Mommy, i'm full...I want cheesecake... (puts his hand on belly and wants more food..) He is actually trying to tell me he's hungry.. :)
Mommy, turn it down!!! (theres no volume on the tv... ) So i've been working on getting him to switch his words around.. but its so cute!!
He loves to make me laugh by doing silly things.. Last night, he walked up to me after putting his pj's on and pulled his pants way up past his belly button(steve urkel style)..
We've went to the school's playground up the road a few time this past week, he surprised me by how good he does on the monkey bars, with me right under him holding him of course but he'll be a pro one of these days..
ok recipes as i said on the last post i'd post a recipe... Last night i tried something new as i was trying to think what to make with turkey sausage..(the only thing i had thawed out).. I guess i'll call it.. pizza lasagna.. I layered it by using.. organic soft shells, pizza sauce, turkey sausage and cheese and repeat layer.. throw in oven at 350° till whenever cheese melts.. it wasnt bad at all... I'm not a creative cook so this is probably the only recipe you'll get from me that i came up with.. (i'm sure someone has already done something like this.. ) I wanted to post a cookie recipe but i cant find it anywhere online but its on the back of the milk chocolate ghirardelli chocolate chip bag... the only thing i do differently is put the dough in the fridge overnight.. Its super soft cookies!! my favorite choc chip cookies..
ok off to feed kylie!