Being a mom=lots of scraficing

The title almost explains it all in one short sentence.. Why am i saying this? Well yesterday while loading the dishwasher, i realized that I've sacrificed(with joy) a lot ever since I became a mom. I was invited to a bachelorettes party, its an overnight party at a hotel in DSM, now this would be really fun to go to but i wont be going for a few reasons, one I'm nursing kylie, I refuse to pump bottles for her and 2-i cant even handle staying away from my kids overnight.. done that with carson and wont do it again til I'm emotionally ready for it..
Before I became a mom, i was really looking forward to my 21st birthday b/c I'll be legal to drink and go to bars.. I remember telling ppl, i cant wait til i turn 21... well 21 came and it was just another number... Nothing exciting at all.. Alex, Carson and I actually all had the flu.. :) I still have not been to a bar and have no desire to go to one.. I'd just prefer to stay at home with my children than go to bars or partying. Some moms are able to do this on a every weekend basis or even during the weeks, i'm not sure how they can do it?? I promise to keep this a clean blog, I wont get ugly on this, it is something that bothers me a lot but...... someday i hope they realize how much they've missed out while their kids were growing up..
This morning i read a disturbing blog about a mom that killed herself and left behind a little girl.. My heart goes out to this little girl and the family. Something must have been really bothering her to be able to do that.. I literally get tears in my eyes when i wonder if anything will ever happen to me, being killed in a car accident or something like that(no i would NEVER kill myself if that even crossed your mind) and leaving my kids behind on earth.. Who is going to take care of them? I know Alex is capable of doing that but its MY job to take care of my kids and Alex be our financial supporter.. Its hard.. extremely hard on me.. I know that Heaven is a much better place, I often wonder what Heaven is like.. but I want to wait til my kids are on their own, I want them to be who I raised/want them to be.. That is something completely out of my control. I am trusting the Lord that he knows what he is doing and that my kids will be well taken care of and surrounded by lots of love.. That is IF that happened to me.. I really hope not!
I often ask myself, how do i want to be remembered as a mom.. my answer is.. i want to be remembered as a fun mom, i want them to have great childhood memories, i want to be remembered as a devoted mom... i want them to have a great relationship with God, this is something i will have to teach them and set an example for them too as well.. And I also want to be my children best friend!!
ok, moral of the story.. being a mom is a precious job, make the best of it!

i <3 (heart) Craigslist!!

I finally found a double stroller(after a good 2-3 months of searching around) that meets my qualification! (good shape, no stains, newer, name brand...yes i'm picky) Its an Eddie Bauer stroller that the front of seat is reversible(facing me)! how awesome! We are definitely getting a deal on it!! :D From what I've found online, it sells anywhere from $180 to $250.. WE are buying it for $75.. :) Getting it on Sunday.. Time to shed the pounds off!!! Many post ago, i mentioned that everyone should check craigslist before going out paying full price....... you really should do that.. (with the exception of stuff that you wouldnt want to buy used..) Its not that i'm a cheap person, I just love to get good deals on stuff...
ALSO, another reason why i love craigslist.... well... I sold my dads camper the next day i posted on there.. AND same for my cloth diapers i made(yes, after all that nagging and time it took). I sold it on Craigslist the same day posting it on there. I am making different ones right now, well.. working on creating a new pattern and almost done with the one i started on today and will be testing it out on Kylie and see how i like it..
again... I HEART CRAIGSLIST!!! Thought i'd let you know that!!!
off to finish sewing.....

over a week??

i didn't know it took me this long to get back to blogging.. sorry if i disappoint some of you guys.. i have been extra busy over the past week and a half.. and tired at times on top of that.. I've had computer time but just been doing other stuff on the computer over blogging. Well not sure what exactly to blog about??? Kylie is getting so big already! I'm sad that she is out of the newborn stage.. she actually grew out of that FAST! I weighed her the 29th and she was 11lbs 9oz!!! She is awake more often now and at longer periods of time but still likes to sleep on and off during day time, does good at night time, cant complain about that!
Carson has made me laugh a lot lately.. He has some of his words mixed up.. for example... Mommy, i'm full...I want cheesecake... (puts his hand on belly and wants more food..) He is actually trying to tell me he's hungry.. :)
Mommy, turn it down!!! (theres no volume on the tv... ) So i've been working on getting him to switch his words around.. but its so cute!!
He loves to make me laugh by doing silly things.. Last night, he walked up to me after putting his pj's on and pulled his pants way up past his belly button(steve urkel style)..
We've went to the school's playground up the road a few time this past week, he surprised me by how good he does on the monkey bars, with me right under him holding him of course but he'll be a pro one of these days..
ok recipes as i said on the last post i'd post a recipe... Last night i tried something new as i was trying to think what to make with turkey sausage..(the only thing i had thawed out).. I guess i'll call it.. pizza lasagna.. I layered it by using.. organic soft shells, pizza sauce, turkey sausage and cheese and repeat layer.. throw in oven at 350° till whenever cheese melts.. it wasnt bad at all... I'm not a creative cook so this is probably the only recipe you'll get from me that i came up with.. (i'm sure someone has already done something like this.. ) I wanted to post a cookie recipe but i cant find it anywhere online but its on the back of the milk chocolate ghirardelli chocolate chip bag... the only thing i do differently is put the dough in the fridge overnight.. Its super soft cookies!! my favorite choc chip cookies..
ok off to feed kylie!

NEW

So thanks to Katy for filling me in how how to get a new layout and to add stuff to the side of my blog.. it was soo simple!! I obviously had a blond moment when trying to figure it out on my own before posting a post asking how to do it.. I love the way it looks now! I love having pictures on the side now.. I had a different layout from a different website and it somehow messed up on me(too much playing around that i cant remember what i did) so back to having the black layout for now I know i said i'd post a few recipes on here and i have not done that yet.. Been slacking here a bit.. well... doing other stuff i should say.. But thats my next goal on here.. get recipes on here!! I enjoy getting ideas from others and trying new things.. I do enjoy cooking(when i'm in the mood) but I hate the clean up part that goes with it... I've been starting to have more of an interest in baking, but i do try to avoid that as my tire(what my mom calls those rolls around the belly) doesn't need it! :)
Well its LATE and hear Kylie starting to fuss..

help please........

how do i get a blog roll on the side of my blog?? B, this is probably why your view count is so high is b/c i go there all the time to click on the ppl's blog!! I don't have a clue how i get it on my page!?!? Also how could i find some cool layouts instead of using just the blogs templates.. those are boring!! help me please!!!!

Canon Rebel Camera ROCKS!!

Got a new camera when we went to DSM over the weekend.. I still think we are crazy for getting a Rebel but its ok.. i'll make it worth it!! :D Those are some of the pics we took with new camera.. i have lots more but this blogger site is slow at downloading pics.. More pics on my facebook.. Most of the pictures above are all the ones i edited...

EXCITED!!!

excited to leave for a night(Sat. night) with my family... today(Friday) Alex came home early, we got to talking about how we need to go clothes shopping for the 2 of us.. and later on.. at the spur of the moment.. I told Alex that we should get a hotel for the night and just chill in Des Moines because I need a break from home! Take Carson swimming, RELAX with hubby and kids and go clothes shopping(AND hoping to get a new camera, but we will at least look at them).. He was up for it, so he reserved a suite room at Staybridge Suites for us and thanks to my dad for letting us use his hotel points.. :D I used to be hard to please(before I became a mom), but it doesn't take much anymore.. when a break is needed, I'm up for anything outside of the house.. I think we are still planning a trip to Branson, MO maybe late Sept/early Oct... we'll see how things go by then.. I shall get off now and fold laundry and unload dishwasher.. its almost midnight but I want to get stuff done tonight so I can come home to a clean house on Sunday.
Found this list that may be helpful for you on your next trip..